I am trying to stay on the path to healthiness and it is more difficult than ever. In July, I got down to 214 lbs, my lowest to date. Then I pulled back on the amount I was working out, I cheated more than I should when it came to dietary choices and before I knew it, I packed on 11 lbs.
It is so frustrating how quickly I can get off track. Also, I just hate that you can gain weight way faster than lose it. How unfair is that!
So three weeks ago, I signed back up for personal training twice a week and hitting the gym for cardio four times a week. No more spur of the moment meal choices for me. Each week I carefully plan out my meals and shop accordingly. I still have a sweet tooth so I found an awesome healthy recipe, Vegan Raw Cookie Dough. Its not really cookie dough, but it tastes just like it! It is made up of chick peas, almond butter and dark chocolate chips. I have a tablespoon or two with an apple for an afternoon snack.
With all this effort, I am down 7 lbs. So besides working out regularly and eating right, what is my other motivation?
Sticky notes.
I have them on my fridge, walls, and doors. They are filled with reminders of things to avoid, things to strive for and goals achieved. If I don't have constant reminders....I just fall off the wagon.
One area that I am just really struggling with is the scale. My trainer has asked me to only weigh in once a week. Before last Friday, I was weighing myself every day and now I am constantly worried. What if my eating isn't as on track as I think it is? What if I am not working out hard enough? What if the scale tells me that all my work is for nought this week? I wonder if this is what goes through the mind of people struggling with anorexia and bulimia? If I'm not hyper focused on losing weight, I don't do what I need to do, but when I am, I am completely panicked about weighing in.
I don't know how to combat that.
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